Sunday, September 19, 2010


And I will also ease the burdens which are put upon your shoulders, that even you cannot feel them upon your backs, even while you are in bondage; and this will I do that ye may stand as witnesses for me hereafter, and that ye may know of a surety that I, the Lord God, do visit my people in their afflictions.

Mosiah 24:14

Tomorrow morning at 9:30am, we were supposed to see our baby's heartbeat. Every time I think about that, my heart breaks a little. I am grateful that my boss scheduled a staff meeting for tomorrow, so I won't be staring at the clock thinking about what might have been. I am even more grateful that I found out the baby had stopped growing prior to tomorrow's appointment. As devastating as it was to get that phone call, finding out in the doctor's office would have been even harder.

I am saying extra prayers tonight that tomorrow goes by quickly.

Ryan had a dream today that I was pregnant again. I asked if we were nervous or scared in the dream and he said no. We were happy.


Rachel said...

I will be keeping you in my thoughts & prayers Monday. Hoping it goes by quickly and peacefully for you!

Anonymous said...

You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Again, I am so very sorry this happened and yes, I am so very grateful that you did't find out at your appointment. That was exactly how I found out and I just remember being whisked from the u/s room, to the waiting area, into the doctors office and then finally to admin for scheduling all the while walking by what seemed like billions of pictures of tiny, precious babies on the wall. I was fighting to keep it together and it was one of the most horrific experiences of my life. So while it breaks my heart that this happened to you, I am at least grateful that you found out the way you did which admittedly is still heartbreaking no matter what. (((hugs)))

Luna said...

Isn't it amazing how the scriptures can be so different at different times. I just read through Mosiah recently... and am flabbergasted that I missed that amazing scripture! Thank you for sharing it!

Today will go by quickly!
And what a wonderful dream! Now Ryan can be a "visionary man"

Lyndsey said...

I hope your bad dreams and nightmares go away soon. Even my husband was having bad dreams after my miscariage, and that hurts.