Sunday, November 28, 2010

New Hope

I had a very spiritual experience today. It is a bit personal to share publicly, but thanks to my Heavenly Father and an inspired priesthood leader, I feel comfortable with 2 confirmations:

1. I will be a mother someday, in this life.

2. We should continue with infertility treatments, and put the idea of adoption on hold for now.

I don't know anything more than that, but that is enough to keep me going.

Immediately after this experience, I cleaned up my snotty, tear-streaked face and rushed off to the last church meeting of the day, arriving just before the opening song began.

And this is the song we sang:

Be thou humble in thy weakness,
and the Lord thy God shall lead thee,
Shall lead thee by the hand
and give thee answer to thy prayers.

Be thou humble in thy pleading,
and the Lord thy God shall bless thee,
Shall bless thee with a sweet
and calm assurance that he cares.

6 comments:

Renee Hart said...

Such sweet tender mercies from a loving Heavenly Father.

Michele said...

hugs, dear one... many, many hugs...

Luna said...

I love you! I really needed to say that. I can't tell you how often I read your blog and it says something I really needed to hear. I may not have the same struggles in life that you do, but it really is amazing how universal the Balm of Gilead really is! I hate the fact that you have this challenge in your life. I really do hate it, but I am so thankful for this blog. I am so thankful for the wisdom you pour out. There are too many times to number that you have lifted me up. I know I am not the only one that feels this way. I hope you know how amazing you are and how blessed you are, with lots more blessings to come. You have been given some amazing gifts, and I LOVE that you share them.

I really needed that song today. Thank you!

Grandma Honey said...

I saw this quote today and thought of you:

When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hold on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.
- Harriet Beecher Stowe

I love you Michelle. You and Ryan are in our prayers continually.

Whitney said...

I just discovered your blog. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. It is wonderful to be able to connect with someone who knows EXACTLY how you feel. Sending good thoughts your way!

AJ said...

I need some of that guidance to rub off on me :-) Maybe I just need a blessing from someone detached from the situation (i.e. not my Hubby). Does that sound bad?

I'm so glad that your blessing brought a bit of peace and some answers (let's call them that, k?). You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there girl!

FAITH IN GOD MEANS HAVING FAITH IN HIS TIMING.