Thursday, February 17, 2011

TUPO

Twins Until Proven Otherwise

I have decided that I am not giving up on Andie.

When I posted about my last ultrasound, I wrote the things they told me at the doctor's office: Andie will not make it through the pregnancy, Andie will not catch up, Andie's heart will stop beating. Yes, I heard and I understand all those things.

I was afraid to admit that my hope for Andie never went away, even after hearing everything they had to say. I was afraid people would think I was in "denial" or not being "realistic".

I saw for myself Andie was too small, but I also saw the heartbeat. A heartbeat means there is still life, and as long as that heart is beating, I am pregnant with TWO babies, not one. And I am going to enjoy that as long as it lasts.

I understand Andie could leave us tomorrow, next week, or three weeks from now. But until that time I am not giving up!

I love both my babies!

11 comments:

Leanne said...

I love you, Michelle. I am so glad that you do whatever feels right to you. You are an inspiration to so many people.

Brittany said...

In my haste to read your blog and congratulate you, I thought losing Andie was a for sure thing. I apologize for writing your little fighter off so quickly. Congrats on both your babies, they both desire acknowledgment! We are so happy for you, I was thinking of you being so sick and thinking she is probably just smiling right through all the nausea (maybe this isn't the case, but it made me smile just thinking about it)- such a strong happy girl. We love you!

A said...

I love how you are not giving up on Andie!! I'll be praying that your babies and my little one will be here, happy and healthy in October!!

Amy Nielson said...

I couldn't agree more. Miracles happen everyday. Why not for this baby too? :)

Poduska Family said...

When Kelly was pregnant with the triplets 6 years ago, they told her "Baby C" would not survive... but they have 3 adorable little girls in Kindergarten this year. Those little guys can be real fighters!

Luna said...

You are pregnant with twins until proven otherwise. There are 2 babies. Your attitude is perfect. Anyone who thinks you are in denial is crazy. All you have to do is show them the ultrasound and say.... "Are you blind.... these are my babies, here is my proof!"

Michele said...

There is always hope. Always.

Mrs. Lydon said...

You are already making a magnificent mother. Thats exactly what you should do. If we have learned anything throught our respective journeys through infertility it is definately that Doctors educated opinions are not the end all be all. Hope and prayer have the ability to do wonders. I know I will be praying and hoping with you. Grow baby andie GROW.

Hope said...

I'm cheering for Andie! I don't think you're in denial--it sounds to me like you are focusing on the present. Right now you are pregnant with twins. :-)

As Einstein said, "I'd rather be an optimist and a fool than a pessimist and right!" I'm all for optimism. :-)

Al said...

Our hope is firmly in the Lord is still able today to do anything. Hoping with you for Andie.

Tino Nonu said...

I've been absent from your blog for a while, but I wanted to say CONGRATS!! :) Don't give up that hope... I'll definitely be keeping Andie, Beanie and their parents in my prayers!! :D

FAITH IN GOD MEANS HAVING FAITH IN HIS TIMING.