Saturday, October 17, 2009

What is this strange feeling?

Could it be... hope???

Thursday I went back to acupuncture. Back, but to a new place. Instead of meeting with Tim, I searched out another advocate. I found "Dr. Oh".

Unlike Tim, Dr. Oh has had experience with patients dealing with infertility. Our first appointment went very well. Dr. Oh has put me on acupuncture every week, a strict regimen of four different herbs throughout my cycle, and orders to reduce stress (we'll see how that last one goes!). His methods have resulted in 4 successful pregnancies for his patients this year. The usual length of treatment before success is 2 1/2 to 3 months.

Now I know none of this is a guarantee that it could happen for me, but something else exciting happened yesterday. I had hope! I had nearly forgotten what that felt like.

In fact, the biggest part of this whole experience was that it happened at all. For the last couple years (since my unproductive surgery), I have felt hopeless... which slid into depression. Even last year, when I first tried TCM, I felt lost in my treatment and gave up.

So, after literally years of depression, the very fact that I have picked myself up, dusted myself off, and tried again speaks volumes.

Here we go again!

5 comments:

Hillary said...

Good luck! I tried acupuncture last year, and while it didn't have any effect on our efforts to get pregnant, I found it very relaxing and helpful with stress.

Meka said...

That sounds great! You will have to post about how it goes I would love to try acupuncture sometime!

Shan said...

I am excited to hear how this works out for you. I don't know much about acupuncture, but am curious. Crossing my fingers...

Rachelle Palmer said...

Hope! that's awesome! Seriously

Christine Dallimore said...

I LOVE how I can always come to your blog and always be uplifted by your positive attitude! I so needed that today. I also LOVE that you are putting your faith into works. It's so inspiring. I hope your new treatment is successful. I'm seriously praying for you and cheering you on!!!!

FAITH IN GOD MEANS HAVING FAITH IN HIS TIMING.