Monday, May 11, 2009

Something to Show Me?

I just had to record this, because there were times I thought this day would never come.

I typically leave for work before hubby gets home. However, this morning, I was pretty tired and decided to sleep in.

Hubby came home and, after some chatting, we had the following conversation:

R: Well, don’t you have something to show me?
Me: Huh?
R: Don’t you have something to show me?
Me: (After some thought) Do you mean a pregnancy test???
R: Yeah, when I got home and opened the garage door and saw your car still there, I thought you had stayed home and waited because you had something to show me.
Me: Oh, well, I wasn’t thinking about something like that… I wouldn’t get your hopes up…
Me: You look disappointed…
R: Maybe we’re switching roles…

It was really nice to see him disappointed. I know that sounds mean, but after years of feeling alone in this struggle, it’s nice to feel that we are playing on the same team. Don’t get me wrong, he has been very supportive of me. Just not emotionally invested in the goal. I caught a glimmer of that today and it felt great!

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Side Note: I plan to address the topic of Mother’s Day 2009, just haven’t been able to yet. I have many, many thoughts and look forward to sharing them soon.

4 comments:

just me, dawn said...

aaaahh, so sweet. we know that guys want it as much as we do.....but is nice to see proof of it every now and then :)

Countless Tomorrows said...

That is sweet. I can't wait to hear your thought on Mother's Day, I haven't been able to put my down into words without falling apart. Maybe I'll do it and maybe I won't, I still haven't decided.

Chhandita said...

Thts so sweet, and wot is sweeter is the new tone of ur posts, they are positive..

Lemons said...

I understand those feelings with the hubbie, sometimes it feels like infertility is harder on us as women but it's hard on them too. If your hub is like mine he's probably keeping it in more, and then out of the blue he'll say something like that which shows how much he too is going through it. Sending out prayers for all of us...

FAITH IN GOD MEANS HAVING FAITH IN HIS TIMING.