(Thanks to a beautiful friend for this rockin' onesie!)
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Monday, October 3, 2011
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Tomorrow I will hold our daughter
Tomorrow is the day! After almost 3 days of early labor, we have decided to head to the hospital in the morning for some assistance on getting to the next stage. The time to meet you is almost here! We have cleaned the house... vacuumed, dusted, wiped everything down. My bag is packed, and so is yours.
There are no words to express the mix of emotions I am feeling right now. I am nervous, anxious, excited, worried, scared, grateful... just about every feeling you can think of is swirling around in my head (and my stomach). My biggest worry is for you. Will you get through this process okay? Will it be traumatic for you? Will everything go perfectly? Please let it go perfectly.
Those are just the first round of questions. I also wonder, will I be a good mother for you? Will I know what to do? Will I know the things you need? I hope I am everything I need to be and everything you deserve.
You are kicking away as I write this. I have enjoyed having you so close to me for the last 9 1/2 months. I tried to give you all I could during that time. I wasn't perfect, but I tried to keep you safe and help you grow strong. I hope I did everything right. I hope you are born happy and healthy tomorrow.
After 8 long years of hoping and praying, of dreaming about holding you, I can hardly believe that time is here. I am at a loss. I don't know what else to do but pray to my Heavenly Father that at the end of it all I will look into your eyes and all will be well.
Good night, baby. Tomorrow we meet face to face, and life will never be the same again.
There are no words to express the mix of emotions I am feeling right now. I am nervous, anxious, excited, worried, scared, grateful... just about every feeling you can think of is swirling around in my head (and my stomach). My biggest worry is for you. Will you get through this process okay? Will it be traumatic for you? Will everything go perfectly? Please let it go perfectly.
Those are just the first round of questions. I also wonder, will I be a good mother for you? Will I know what to do? Will I know the things you need? I hope I am everything I need to be and everything you deserve.
You are kicking away as I write this. I have enjoyed having you so close to me for the last 9 1/2 months. I tried to give you all I could during that time. I wasn't perfect, but I tried to keep you safe and help you grow strong. I hope I did everything right. I hope you are born happy and healthy tomorrow.
After 8 long years of hoping and praying, of dreaming about holding you, I can hardly believe that time is here. I am at a loss. I don't know what else to do but pray to my Heavenly Father that at the end of it all I will look into your eyes and all will be well.
Good night, baby. Tomorrow we meet face to face, and life will never be the same again.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
40 Weeks (+1 Day)
This morning my mother-in-law asked Ryan to send her a picture of me so she could see what I look like at 40 weeks. I figured that was a good excuse to post one last "belly pic". So, here we are at 40 weeks + 1 day...
I had pretty strong cramps all night and this morning. Within the last few hours, they are beginning to resemble contractions: strong for a minute or so, then lightening up for anywhere from 10 - 25 minutes. I am just doing my normal routine and going with the flow...
I had pretty strong cramps all night and this morning. Within the last few hours, they are beginning to resemble contractions: strong for a minute or so, then lightening up for anywhere from 10 - 25 minutes. I am just doing my normal routine and going with the flow...
Friday, September 30, 2011
Doctor's Appointment
Dilated over 3cm. Cervix is low, thin and soft. Still cramping, stronger now, but still no regular contractions. Maybe this weekend??? Anything's possible!
And happy due date to you, Miss Katelyn! We did it. :)
And happy due date to you, Miss Katelyn! We did it. :)
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Just a quick update...
I continue to have cramps off and on, but no regular contractions. Just today, I felt a dramatic increase in pressure and weight, and Katelyn feels much lower. Not sure any of that means anything, but I continue to just go with the flow. I am uncomfortable but not miserable, and I even have moments where I feel pretty good... just really big!
Friday is my due date and my last day of work (I think). It is also the day of my next (and last???) doctor's appointment. Because of reschedules, it will have been 2 weeks since someone checked my "progress". At that time, I wasn't dilated at all and my cervix was still pretty thick. We'll see what Friday holds for us!
And so we wait!
Friday is my due date and my last day of work (I think). It is also the day of my next (and last???) doctor's appointment. Because of reschedules, it will have been 2 weeks since someone checked my "progress". At that time, I wasn't dilated at all and my cervix was still pretty thick. We'll see what Friday holds for us!
And so we wait!
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Around Here
Last minute preparations are going on around here... For the most part, we are ready to go. Katelyn has everything she will need in the beginning at least. The laundry's done, her bag is packed. Now we are just doing the odds and ends. Like I really need my bathroom floors scrubbed. Not mopped. *Scrubbed.* But that should happen today.
Her nursery isn't quite finished either. I need to paint a few frames and put those up. Also, her wooden name letters. I have a few more ties I need to do on her quilt. I wanted to do a little pillow for her rocking chair. The biggest project of all is her bird mobile. I have all the birds cut out and pinned, but they need to be sewn, stuffed and mounted on the twigs. Then hung of course. None of these things matter when it comes to bringing her home, but it would be lovely if they were done before she gets here.
We also have no food in this house. I know many women pack their freezer in preparation for the birth, but I just haven't gotten bit by that bug. I admire them though, because I am sure they will be reaping the rewards in a few weeks while I send my hubby out for Subway. Again.
As for how I am feeling? As good as can be expected! I am not feeling miserable or anything. Just uncomfortable, mostly when I am in my office chair at work or sitting at church. I haven't really been having contractions too much, just random ones here and there. Mostly, I've been having period-like cramps. They can be pretty strong and can last for a few hours at a time. I've had them in the front and also in my back. I usually just try to rest and I sometimes take a Tylenol, which doesn't do much. Nothing unbearable though, just intense and uncomfortable. When they happen, I just try to picture my cervix cramping and dilating, getting ready for our little girl to COME OUT! :)
Ryan thinks we will have an October baby. Last night, he predicted we would be going out to dinner on our due date. For some reason, I think she'll come before that. Both are just wild guesses. We'll see what happens!
Her nursery isn't quite finished either. I need to paint a few frames and put those up. Also, her wooden name letters. I have a few more ties I need to do on her quilt. I wanted to do a little pillow for her rocking chair. The biggest project of all is her bird mobile. I have all the birds cut out and pinned, but they need to be sewn, stuffed and mounted on the twigs. Then hung of course. None of these things matter when it comes to bringing her home, but it would be lovely if they were done before she gets here.
We also have no food in this house. I know many women pack their freezer in preparation for the birth, but I just haven't gotten bit by that bug. I admire them though, because I am sure they will be reaping the rewards in a few weeks while I send my hubby out for Subway. Again.
As for how I am feeling? As good as can be expected! I am not feeling miserable or anything. Just uncomfortable, mostly when I am in my office chair at work or sitting at church. I haven't really been having contractions too much, just random ones here and there. Mostly, I've been having period-like cramps. They can be pretty strong and can last for a few hours at a time. I've had them in the front and also in my back. I usually just try to rest and I sometimes take a Tylenol, which doesn't do much. Nothing unbearable though, just intense and uncomfortable. When they happen, I just try to picture my cervix cramping and dilating, getting ready for our little girl to COME OUT! :)
Ryan thinks we will have an October baby. Last night, he predicted we would be going out to dinner on our due date. For some reason, I think she'll come before that. Both are just wild guesses. We'll see what happens!
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Stretch Marks
In the last couple days, they have arrived! I went from a few on each hip to about 10 tiny ones on each butt cheek plus a few on what is now the "underside" of my belly. And, honestly, I don't care a bit!
A friend recently sent this to me, and I cried when I read it. My tummy may not have as many marks as this (yet?), but I would be fine if it did. I am so focused on getting my baby *here*, safe in my arms, that sometimes I have to remember to enjoy these moments with her still inside. This pregnancy is a gift and I am forever grateful.
A friend recently sent this to me, and I cried when I read it. My tummy may not have as many marks as this (yet?), but I would be fine if it did. I am so focused on getting my baby *here*, safe in my arms, that sometimes I have to remember to enjoy these moments with her still inside. This pregnancy is a gift and I am forever grateful.
"A mark for every breath you took, every blink, every sleepy yawn. One for every time you sucked your thumb, waved hello, closed your eyes and slept in the most perfect darkness. One for every time you had the hiccups. One for every dream you dreamed within me.
It isn't very pretty anymore. Some may even think it ugly. That's OK. It was your home. It's where I first grew to love you, where I lay my hand as I dreamed about who you were and who you would be. It held you until my arms could, and for that, I will always find something beautiful in it."
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