Sunday, October 2, 2011

Tomorrow I will hold our daughter

Tomorrow is the day!  After almost 3 days of early labor, we have decided to head to the hospital in the morning for some assistance on getting to the next stage.  The time to meet you is almost here!  We have cleaned the house... vacuumed, dusted, wiped everything down.  My bag is packed, and so is yours. 

There are no words to express the mix of emotions I am feeling right now.  I am nervous, anxious, excited, worried, scared, grateful... just about every feeling you can think of is swirling around in my head (and my stomach).  My biggest worry is for you.  Will you get through this process okay?  Will it be traumatic for you?  Will everything go perfectly?  Please let it go perfectly.

Those are just the first round of questions.  I also wonder, will I be a good mother for you?  Will I know what to do?  Will I know the things you need?  I hope I am everything I need to be and everything you deserve.

You are kicking away as I write this.  I have enjoyed having you so close to me for the last 9 1/2 months.  I tried to give you all I could during that time.  I wasn't perfect, but I tried to keep you safe and help you grow strong.  I hope I did everything right.  I hope you are born happy and healthy tomorrow.

After 8 long years of hoping and praying, of dreaming about holding you, I can hardly believe that time is here.  I am at a loss.  I don't know what else to do but pray to my Heavenly Father that at the end of it all I will look into your eyes and all will be well.

Good night, baby.  Tomorrow we meet face to face, and life will never be the same again.

10 comments:

elliespen said...

Hooray, hooray, hallelujah and hooray. I am so happy for you! Sending many prayers your way tonight and tomorrow. Good luck, and give your little girl an extra kiss from this reader in Salt Lake.

april said...

sending prayers your way too!!!

Renee Hart said...

Good luck to you and Katelyn and Ryan. I hope and pray that all will go well. Can't wait to hear all about her♥

Chelsea and Spencer said...

Best of luck to you all. I can't wait to see the pics.

Courtney said...

Good Luck!!!

Clare said...

God willing all will go well. Thinking of you and super excited too!! xx

finallyhismrs07 said...

Good luck! I can't wait for the birth story to come! Prayers for you!

Sarah said...

I have goosebumps on my arms and tears in my eyes! Good luck! Can't wait to meet your miracle :)

Wynn Family said...

Words just aren't enough to express the joy I feel in my heart for you! I don't think you will ever know the amount of times over the years I have thought of and prayed for you!!! You and Ryan are two of the best people there are out in the world and Katelyn and the two of you are going to be a great force in the world!!!
"...and then shall ye have joy in the fruit of your labors." D&C 6:31 You have labored for 8 years!! Well done enduring to the end!!!!

Tiffany said...

Congratulations!!!!!!!!!

FAITH IN GOD MEANS HAVING FAITH IN HIS TIMING.