Ahhh, the incorrigible timeline. Nothing has brought me so much hope, or caused so much depression as a timeline. When dreamed up and followed, a timeline offers anticipation… and expectations. When broken, these doomed expectations bring heartache and hopelessness.
Nevertheless, I have decided to throw caution to the wind and develop a timeline once more.
There are certain, specific reasons why I need to wait a bit to begin a drastic change in course. While I wait, the next six months will be spent improving myself: my spirituality, my physical well-being, my marriage, my career, my financial situation.
At the end of this, I plan to go back to Dr. Synn and take the next step.
So, right here… RIGHT NOW (barring any natural or familial disaster):
I am hereby committing to completing an infertility treatment in July/August 2010.
I meant what I said, and I said what I meant. An elephant's faithful, one hundred percent.